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i asked my mom
"can i go aust to further my studies?"
know what my mom said?
"SIAO AH YOU!"
she scold me siao. what to do?
she asked me why.
i said because of a girl.
she ask me dont because of 1 tree and give up the whole forest.
i said im the leaf that hold on to that tree, will never separate from it.
she asked me what course im intend to take.
i said FRENCH COURSE!
she asked me why.
i said because she like FRANCE!
my mom walked away. i was like WTF?
she said i changed.
did i changed?

i used to being loved, being doted.
now i learn to love, learn to dote.
i learn to accept certain things, accept the truth.
try to be strong, try to be independent.
become more patient, and more patience!
ppl used to wait for me, now im the one who waiting.

i dont care how many hours i slept for a day.
how many times did i ate.
how many packs of cigarettes i smoked in a day.
how many times i miss you.
i just want to keep on going.
just like you are doing it, working hard to save money.
why cant i? im learning, doing, studying, memorizing.
just want to let you know that after 3 years i will be different.
i sweared to myself.